Balancing the Life......

Ahhhhhhhh . I am feeling little relaxed....now.
Just finished an exam which is very important and affects lots of my plans...

I wonder why life is like a Mesh with lots of inter-dependent things......For everything we do there is something that will be dependent or linked with some other thing.......

There is nothing independent in our life......

So need to balance all the things because if we don't take care of few things,they may have lot of impact on the other things.....depending on it........

Hahahah .......you may now think after reading the few above lines....."What is this stupid writing or trying to say.....?" I don't know if it's making sense or not.....but I know for sure that I am writing something which is important to me and it is really bothering....me

I used to think that I am a person who is a good self-analyzer and I will not repeat the mistakes I did in the past...and I am a continous learner and I do learn from my mistakes....

But I don't know these days....my attitude has changed alot and I am feeling very differently......

Ok . Let me tell you about what i meant in saying "feeling differently".

These days I am getting very different type of questions to mind.....like..

Why am I in this world?
For what I am in this world..?
Am I doing anything worth......?
Why am I not able to get the things done.....?
Why am I worried about tommorrow......?
Why should I worry about tommorrow......?
Can't I be living my Life.....for today......?

May be all these questions are bothering me because I am not enjoying what I am doing these days....and I even have the feeling that "Nothing is going in my way".....
There is lot of attitude change in my mind and I can feel the difference......and I even don't like the change......Before I used to be very positive and now I am thinking very badly.....I shouldn't say I am thinking negatively.......but I am sure I am not thinking positively.....you can decide how am I thinking.....looking at my questions.....

I am just letting things happens...before I used to make things happen...... and lots of philosophy is coming from my thinking.......... Lol ......It seems lot of people who can't accomplish things come out with philosphy.....as an excuse to their inability to get things done......May be even I am in that stage....now..

Anyways.....need a break from all the routine stuff........ Studies,work...Service......everything......


NEED A BREAK...